um i can't think of a title.

doing loads of science revision atm, as we have exams on friday, actually shitting it. no jokess!

lol - so apart from revision i've beeen trying to sort things out with elliot, he asked me back out, and i havent amswer him yet, as i don't know what to say or what i want. oh fooooooooook x

right when i got this i was like wicked, but it's not as good as i thught.
i don't wanna write my actually feelings down.
so i'll give you the day to day stuff from now on. sorrrry.

• got up.
• died my hair. (black)
• revised abit.
• went for a walk with kelly.
• went to vaugnies for a curry.
• came home.
• did some art.
• am now writing this.
• and am now going to bedd :D
  

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i haven't writen in ages. it's strange alot has gone on, but yet i feel like i have nothing to write.
i don't really fancy sharing everything with you guys. i don't think i have told anyone every single little bit. except from my paper-diary of course, because me & 'her' we're tight. ha. i'm sucha' loser.
umm, well thursday went to see england VS jamaica netball we won 55 - 49, was such a good game.
and i also found out that day that i have got into the next round of this modelling thing, they've chosen 50 from 5000. have a thing in london 25th March, wish me luck. LOL. i don't actually wanna be a model but it'd be fun in the meantime. hehe.
um it's not friday night,and it is 00:51 right now, and i so should be in bed, but i am so awake. and feel like it'd be a waste if i went to sleep now. so instead i'm just gunna keep on typing as there is no-one to talk to on msn.
there is alot going on with like elliot at the moment, which even myself don't understand. so i can't explain and even if i did understand i wouldn't as i don't really want you to know. sorrry LOL.
i have qutie alot to look forward to actually, which i should be happy about, but i'm not at the moment. xD

tomorow - camping.
7th March - Grace & Jess's 18th!
17th March - dentist (private joke with lauren vyse ;))
20th March - Fiver - Look See Proof.
21st March - D of E walk (:() & Chloe, Jade & Rowen's party.
25th March - London Modelling photoshoot. (i hate writing that)
26th - The Maccabees (junction)
28th March - Gay Night. (junction)


well that is for the next month or so anyway, and in between all of that is netball matchess, to make it even better. haha lol. sucha' good time coming up.
just to let everyone know, that yes i did get a new chapstick, but it is very disappointing. It was the cocoa butter one, and it's really grainy and horrible. so for the record don't waste your money :L haha.
well i am starting to get tired now. so am gunna go to bed, and read love it. nice and interlectual. ;p
nightt (L)

wednesdayy.

at the moment, as i was telling someone earlier, my life is good at the moment as i'm looking at the good in it. but when i have down moments it's not that there isn't anything good happening it's just that i'm not foccusing on them.
so my late new years resolutions are:

• to not talk back to my netball coach (she made that up)
• loose some weight.
• become less paranoid.
• do something that i have never done before atleast once a week.
• figure out my dad
• get good grades at school
• improve in netball
• start a new sport
• don't bitch

haha. i don't any of them will happen but you knowww. xD


we're going down to plymouth tomorow for becky's passing out parade, i can't belive she's done it. it's amazing! dad & everyone will be there. haven't seen dad in ages now, maybe it'll be nice to see him. at the moment in my household i feel as if the only person i can talk to is my mum, as alice is a bitch as usual, i don't get her, when sam's in jersey she like sucks up to me and stuff. but now she's making me feel really uncomfortable, i don't get her.
oh well, she's pathetic and i don't care.
i'm going out now, with kurt & ben.
love love x

i'm at helen'sssssssssssssss.

today, i haven't realllly donee alot. helenn & shannon came over at aboutt 12, then they left and i did science revision liike a goood galll ;)
lolzzz.
i amm sleeping overrr helens with shannnon. looooooooooooool.


x

bonjourrrr.

bonjour mon petit pals xD

i had a ratherrrr gooooooooooooooooooooood day todayyy.
kelly slept ovaa last night, then i met lauren vyseeywyseeeyy in town, wass FUN.
then went to kellllys. wass FUOOOON.
LOL.

my day would have been perfect if my mum hadnt have made me stay at home tonight (as i've had too many nights out in a row aha lol). so i couldn't stay at helllll demmmms. :( GUTTTTTTEDDD!
ENITTTT!


but at the moment life is actually pretty gooooooooood. xD

i have a lot of thoughts today.
so after conferring with helen, i've decided to write another one.
& after being told that my blogs are depressing, (well sorry but thats just my life atmmmm :L) LOL.
anyway, i forgot to mention that me & helen yesterday made james & james 4th valentines ccards, but i am NOT giving him minee haha.
I am soooooooo happy that it's half term, for the first time in ages i haven't got the 'sunday night' feeeling. LOL.



your mum joke for todayyyy: your mumma's so fat, she sat next to everyyyyyyoneeeee at schoooooolll.
;)



PS: love you helen.

she wrote back..

right, my best friend from year one has just recently moved away. and to express how i was feeling towards her and towards everything, & about our latest argument i wrote her a letter. and out of the blue when i got home from my aunties this afternoon i found a letter from her in my kitchen. i had no idea she was even got the letter. but it hit me, it was like realisation that she was gone. it made me burst into tears, and i feel as if i don't want anyone to know. like once again we have a secret between us. it's strange how things change.


when i was at my aunties i was thinking about 'james' and i don't understand all of my worries & doubts. he's the best thing that's happened to me in ages. it's strange but these days i find it harder to trust people.

lyrics for todayy : 'nothing means more to me, than what we share, noone in this world could ever compare.' - angel of mine.

It's saturday 14th February, valentines. It's all abit depressing tbh, i did have someone, but i told him something and it sort of ruined 'us'. at first i was like oh it's gunna be okay, but tbh i don't know now. i think that we would have been really good together, but i'm not sure whether we'd work now :/
so, this year i am yet again on my own for valentines. cwoar it's so depressing. but in all fairness i don't believe in valentines, as it's just another day of the year for all of us singles to feel shit about being single.
whoever made it up is sillly. LOL.
anyway on a happier note, my brother sam is now home, he came home last night. it's good to have him home :) also had kate's party last night, that was awomse. x

Today has been a weird day. We had all of the left over snow, which has now truned into sludge, and it just gets my feet really really wet, so tbh i think it should just go. lol.
This is my just blog writting thing, and i'm finding it pretty cool. Like an online diary :)